Her day - not mine

Happy birthday 

Happy day I began

Such an occasion

Such a time. 

Is it still special 

Now that you are gone. 

Does it still matter 

Without me in your arms 

Am I still special without 

your gaze on me

Can I still believe, everything 

you told me I'd be?

Open words

Words, sense

Inspiration is nothing

Meaning everything

Wear every letter

Paint every sound

Rounder, louder

More real than the paper it’s on.

Break out of the mould

Speak the unspeakable

Write sentences of insanity

That explain the inexplicable

Vocabulary exalting

Above all other signs

Plummeting to the top of the world

So easily misunderstood

Subjection, comparison,

Contradictions infuriating

Truth or false

But who’s? And where’s?

Just a word

Rouder.

Lounder.

More real than on paper

Echoing the caves

Vibrating through our journeys

Published on their skin

Faded into lines

Damp with dried tears

Turn the page;

Write the next.

Not mine

21st October - you don't belong to me

But I'd give everything I have for a moments still relief. 

Take care of her, wrap her in your leaves, 

Whisper words unspeakable in the colours that you fall. 

Take a pause, don't come tonight:

Don't rise or set again 

Tick on and leave us 

This day that no one wants. 

We remember your unfairness

Your spite, your sting, your song. 

Remind us of tomorrow,

Tell us again that you will pass. 

How not to be a bridesmaid: The Rules:

You need to like my fiancée,
But you'd better love my dress!
It has become my identity -
I keep its picture in my purse.

Hate my future mother in law,
But help her learn to like me. 
Show her my worth with the company I keep
And don't spare a thought for your dresses.

Know the difference between ivory and white
And whether that glass goes on the left or the right.
Wipe my tears, calm my fears - never, ever disagree.
Remind me why I chose you, by sharing all your views
- But never, I said never, ever disagree. 

Don't worry about your dresses,
That's all under control
I have contacts and colleagues, 
Classmates who will help.

Panic for me, jump for me,
Never ask me how high.
Let me hear yeses - without second guesses:
Because our thoughts are my thoughts - your thoughts exactly.

Understand the neurosis
Pick up on every whim.
Let bells chime all morning
Ignoring each and every crisis.

Keep smiling, keep quiet,
Keep me calm and carry on...
And definitely don't worry at all about your dresses.

Be comfortable and funny
Remember who you are.
Be generous, be kind
And lead us to the dance floor.

Be the reason you are here:
My beloved trusted friends.
Who have laughed with me and loved me
Even more so now than then.

Don't worry about your dresses,
They are my only gift to you.
A keep-sake of our friendship:
A memory just like you.

I yawn

I sigh because there's nothing left to say

I yawn because there's something I need to hear.

Mixed emotions, mixing dreams

Wanting to be better, wondering if we can.

My hands do the talking but my words have no eyes

Nothing works, no one wins,

We just stay here unchanged.

A change is gonna come - but what if I don't.

Another digit, another stranger

One two and three, every day another four.

I felt lonely today, the consequences of me:

I sigh because there's nothing left to say

I yawn because I'm tired.

We fight. We fail. We learn how to fall

Changing times, moving lines,

Highs and lows:

Ebbs flow through minutes lost in thought.

A memory chimes, echoes in the night

Stirring the unfortunate, the ones left behind.

Tell me again why we have to go on.

Feed my love with candle light

So that I can finish this final sad song

I sigh ...

Because I sigh,

I yawn because you are gone.